Flowers from Heaven.

Some stories are just too good, too important not to tell.

This is one of them.

Tuesday night I was at the peak of emotional misery. Nothing seemed to be going right in any area of my life. My muscles felt tired and my body ached from emotional erosion. I didn’t want to face the world. Unfortunately, the world was coming to me, in the form of a dinner party for a visitor staying at our house. Originally excited to meet our guests, the idea of new faces seemed too much to handle. Thankfully, a last-minute invitation to dinner offered me refuge in the only place in Amman I know as “home,” a young family who has opened their arms to me, mentored me, loved on me. I knew I could go there and not need to perform.

With a weight five times my own, I left my house, dragged myself up the stairs, and handled society until safely in the confines of a cab. I stared outside the window at the city passing by, blinking back tears and mentally numb from thinking. Were we there yet?

Almost to the destination, we stopped at a major intersection. Peddlers, young and old, Gypsy and Arab, often congregate here. Selling newspapers, life-size teddy bear stickers and plants of all shapes and sizes, they walk between the cars, peddling the day’s deal. That day, it was white flowers. 4 lanes of traffic over, I watched two young brothers cajoling a young man to buy a bouquet for his wife.

Suddenly, the idea of flowers felt so great to me. My heart longed for them. They were beautiful: White, crisp and joyful. They seemed like the perfect salve for my weary spirit and heavy heart. I yearned for one.

But, not only were the boys far away, I also didn’t think I could spare the money to buy them myself. With my heart heavy with disappointment, I decided I’d just tell God. “God, I’d really like some flowers. I know it seems silly, but I just wish I could have one. My heart hurts and they seem so nice.

[I wish I could say that at this point I said something to God about being able to see the other "flowers" in my life that He blesses me with. I'm not sure if that happened or not. I'd sound like a better person if it did... but it probably didn't.]

The light changed and our cab moved forward, leaving the boys and their flowers far behind in the exhaust.

Fast-forward to yesterday, Thursday, approximately 48 hours after the day of Hell. That afternoon, I grabbed a cab to go across town to meet a friend. An encounter with an 8-year-old boy with roaming hands had me vigorously typing a future blog post on my cell phone. Consumed in the text, I lost all awareness to my surroundings. I hadn’t even realized we had stopped until, suddenly, a white flower appeared in front of my face.

I froze. It was the very flower I had asked God for.

I looked up and saw we were at the same intersection from Tuesday night. A different boy is smiling at me from the passenger side window, bouquets of flowers clutched to his chest. “Oh, no thanks, I don’t want to buy the flowers” I tell him.

No, it’s for you. A gift.” the boy says with a smile.

I’m sure my eyes doubled as I looked at him in disbelief.

The boy just smiles, turns, and walks away. Our cab pulls forward.

I’m no longer interested in my phone. I’m just staring at the flower in complete disbelief. I asked God for a flower, and he gave me the very one I wanted. He didn’t have to. I’m not worthy of it, heck I almost beat up an 8-year-old. And at that moment all I felt was pure, complete, love. God loved me enough to give me flowers. Not because I did anything special or deserved them, but because He loved me.

I stared at that flower for another 5 minutes. Flabbergasted. Dumbfounded. In awe of our delightful God who gives us even the smallest, most minute desires of our hearts. A God of the details. A God of love.

My heart was exploding inside of me, overflowing. I debated for about 30 seconds, before deciding I had to tell my taxi driver about the best present I’d ever received. “Can I tell you something?” I asked. I then proceeded to tell him about seeing the boys two days before, wanting the flowers but not having any money, and asking God to give me a flower. And then today, just then, I got a flower.

Through the rearview mirror I watched the face of my driver, trying to figure out if he understood my Arabic. Without a word, the worn face of the driver broke into a smile. For a moment, I just watched him smile. It seemed internal, like the smile inside of me, and I knew he understood. Still silent, the driver lifted his hand to his face and quietly wiped a tear from the corner of his eye. Looking up at me, his smile grew. Shaking his head in disbelief he praised,

Subhan’Allah” he said. “Subhan’Allah

Praise God. Yes. Praise God.

I hope you feel so loved today, because you are.

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8 thoughts on “Flowers from Heaven.

  1. I am absolutely overly emotional today anyway, but I’m just sitting here with tears rolling down my face.

    I am in awe of our gracious and good Father. I love you, and I am just SO amazed not only how God answered your prayer, but how you were able to touch and share that moment with your cab driver. Dude, Praise God. I would bring you a big boquet of flowers if I could right now!! You deserve so many! Keep fighting the good fight, sisterfriend.

    Now this 8 year old pick-pocket…did he steal something from you? :( boo. I’ll look forward to your post on that ;)

    • :) I cried when it happened, I blinked back tears telling it and cried again writing it. It’s a tear worthy reminder of love I so often forget!

      As for the pickpocket? He just tried to grab my butt. And I seriously almost turned around and clobbered him. But then I realized he was like a Cub Scout. So instead I just prayed for his poor little mind and the fact that he thinks it’s okay to do that/society has told him it’s okay. My rant on him will probably come later in a post :) Poor boy.

  2. So, so so precious. Linking everywhere now.
    Praise be to the Lord. Father of lights, water earth and sky…and flowers.
    I bet that taxi driver had suffered from emotional erosion as well. God chose him to hear that story first. How loved he must be.

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  4. You are an inspiration the world over! Thanks for sharing your joy….because every joy shared plants a seed of joy in the heart that is reading it <3 Love you roomie xx

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